As of December, 31st 2021,
I will graduate from Nogizaka46
I joined when I was in 9th grade and stayed until I reached 24 years old
I truthfully had 10 years of happiness.
I started to think of graduating sometime back then,
but then I realized that I didn’t want to leave.
(That’s just showing how) I really loved the days I’ve spent with everyone so much.
Considering, thinking again, considering… repeatedly
When I took the time carefully, in the end
I was able to decide, “I will leave!”
I announced this suddenly
it may have upset everyone.
When I’m recalling some memories, I can’t help but feel sad.
However, if everyone accepts this decision,
I will be happy.
Before I entered Nogizaka, I was a straight-laced person
While being a member of younger group who wasn’t afraid of anything, I kept moving forward
and before I knew it, it seems that I became a strange person, lol
Whenever I reminisce things, it’s full of embarrassing things
But it’s kind of dazzling, isn’t it?
I am now completely an older member. As I’m growing up,
I feel stronger and also felt timid sometimes.
I laughed more often, but I endured tears more as well.
I’m sure if I was alone, I’d be crumbled somewhere.
Anytime, any condition (of myself),
(there were) members who held my hands
fans who pushed my back (to support)
staffs who guided me
family who supported me
Thanks to everyone
that I managed to come this far.
Thank you very much for
sharing your love.
Even after graduation, even the things are changed
while exploring new ways of life and expressions,
I’ll be happy if
I can get along with everyone.
My life as an idol is two months left
10th Anniversary album, Tokyo Dome, music program, meet and greet…
Also, graduation concert is scheduled to be held on December.
I want to cherish every single thought for everyone.
To be able to meet (members and fans) in Nogizaka
I am sincerely grateful.
I love you.
7:09 pm, I was still at work and doing some remaining tasks for today to finish,
and then someone DM-ed me on Twitter.
I was confused at first, but then I guessed right.
Ikuchan announced her graduation.
No matter how prepared I have for this day to come,
I’ve never thought it’s gonna be today.
It really made my limbs gone weak.
I tried to calm myself for few minutes and then tidy up my desk and left the office.
I played “Kikkake” and headed to the station to go home.
My steps were so heavy.
“if everyone accepts this decision,
I will be happy.“
I’m sorry, Ikuchan…
At this rate, I can’t accept it.
Not only it seemed rushed, I don’t think I can pay back 2.5 years of hiatus from fully supporting you in 2 months.
To be honest, I thought that she will be graduate next year.
It’s really unpredictable since hers and Kazumin’s only few months apart.
They really don’t let me catch a break, huh?
I kept thinking on my way home from work today. What can I do to pay back my hiatus in two months… It’s too sudden, I don’t have money to buy lots of albums to participate its release events…
I came to a conclusion that I will use my Japanese proficiency to translate some memorable interviews, clips, and anything about Ikuchan here until she graduates. However, since I’m quite busy during working hours, I can’t post everyday. For now, I’ll try to create 2-3 posts a week.
Depending on how the 10th Anniversary album will turn into, this probably will be the last project from erika-ikuta.net.
I’m not sure if this conclusion can be counted as pay back, but…this is all I can do.
There are still so many thoughts I have in mind. But it’s too many that I can’t put them into words.
it’s early, but…
Thank you for 10 years of hardwork in Nogizaka46, Ikuchan. I’m so glad to know you: an angel in human form.
Let’s cherish every last moments of Ikuchan as Nogizaka46 member.
I love you.